first of all, not having a job really, really sucks. so does haing to put in five million applications because no one is hiring in a shitty economy.

and i'm dropping political science as a second major. i'm now going to be strictly a sociology major with a minor in anthropology. i realized how long it's going to take me if i stick with a double major and minor. and honestly, i just want to get the fuck out of school. i'm over it already. i suppose i can always come back if i need to.

 it's time to sqeeze the last few drops out of this summer. my feet are getting itchy, yet my heart remains heavy. it's with such dread that i leave this valley every year, and this time i might not be back. 

sunrise from the top of cloud's rest. pictures will never do this day justice, as they shouldn't. there are certain things that simply put must be seen with human eyes, felt with human hands, and loved by human hearts. we are all so lucky to be able to see and recognize beauty; to appreciate it the way that it should be appreciated. how many sunrises will i watch throughout my life? perhaps only a handful and yet it's so taken for granted that it will always be there. i'm so happy with my life right now, really and truly.

sunrise.

boystown halloween is today. i'm a superhero. cape, spandex, everything. it's going to be phenomenal.

also, we've been without power now for five days (maybe more, who knows?). i haven't taken a shower in over a week, my clothes are all dirty and smelly, and i think i'm going to grow out my armpit hair for the rest of the summer. just because if there's any place for a girl to have pit hair, it's here.

i'm really happy right now.

i just thought i'd make sure to write that down so when i'm feeling blue, i can look back and realize that i was not always so and i won't always be.

really really really happy.

in a strange twist of fate, i've become good friends with (of all people) amanda. ben's ex-girlfriend amanda. which is something that i really didn't see coming. we talked about everything that happened here a few years back and now it's not awkward; a very pleasant surprise, considering. 

the olympics were yesterday. i ran around drunk and loved it in all my spandex and nudity glory. i just wish i didn't have to see him every single day. he's the type of person that you know you should hate and can't yet because he did mean something to me. but, it's fading quickly, and will be all gone soon.

"why couldn't you be a lesbian for just one night?"

hahahaha.

i love you.

i'll be coming out to see all of you soon enough. until then, just know that you're perfect.

i just bought a round trip ticket from prague to romania for $100.

holy fuck!

march 20 - 25, i'll be in the land of ... i honestly have no idea what. 

who cares?! romania!!

the times, they are a changin'

 have i seriously had this journal since september 2004?

 officially: fuck helsinki

that finnish bitch on the plane next to me got me sick.

supa supa supa lame.

massive aaron time.

"they don't play soccer! ...gays?"

i'm in love with him. so much so.

and why do you all have to live way the fuck down in sacramento?!

anyways, my voice is gone, my throat is swollen, and i spent the last 6 hours volunteering in rancho with my mom. wrapping presents for people who can't afford to give their kids anything. an now i'm so fucking grateful for all that i was given, for everything i have. everyone of us is so priveleged, it's unbelievable.